Delia ([info]esperar) wrote,
@ 2008-05-21 14:39:00
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When We Finally Hit The Bottom
So here is my Buffy/Angel mix. I'm kind of on a fanmix making roll aren't I?





Full Zip Here


//Track List


01 How to be Dead - Snow Patrol
Please keep your hands down
And stop raising your voice
It's hardly what I'd be doing if you gave me a choice

For me, this song encompasses most of the Buffy/Angel relationship, starting with episode seven, season one, "Angel", when Buffy first learns Angel is a vampire. The song also reminds me strongly of early season two and three, when the two are struggling with their feelings and their positions, and deciding whether or not its worth the risk of getting involved. It also reminds me of "I Will Remember You" and "Sanctuary" from Angel season one. I see it as both perspectives and can be perceived as either for different verses.

02 We Looked Like Giants - Death Cab For Cutie
God bless the daylight, the sugary smell of springtime
Remembering when you were mine
In a still suburban town

A song for "Innocence" and "Surprise", the short bliss they enjoyed before "Surprise", the one night they had together, and the return of Angelus accompanied by his campaign to destroy Buffy.

03 C.S. Lewis Song - Brooke Fraser
Speak to me in the light of the dawn
Mercy comes with the morning
I will sigh and with all creation groan
As I wait for hope to come for me

Am I lost or just less found,
On the straight or on the roundabout of the wrong way?
Is this a soul that stirs in me,
Is it breaking free, wanting to come alive?

This song reminds me of "Surprise" and "Innocence" as well. It also reminds me of Buffy's struggles with returning to life in season six.

04 Majoring in Minors - Sugarcult
Watching your lips move together
Nothing's making sense
Talk to me
Talk to me
I don't want to break the silence with the taste of something violent
Come to me
Come to me

This song is for the struggle between Buffy and Angelus. He's lost his soul but that doesn't mean Buffy has stopped loving him. She blames herself and she can't bring herself to kill him but she'll have to do it eventually. It can also be seen as Angel's decision to leave in season three.

05 I Don't Know If I'll Be Back This Time - Sea Wolf
Will this key work anymore?
Does someone else now live inside?
I think the former tenant died

I don't know if I'll be back this time
I might just stay here with you

Again I am reminded of Surprise and Innocence but also of the return of Angel's soul in Becoming Part Two and his return from hell in season three. The confusion and guilt he felt over what he'd done, all the while still struggling to suppress the feelings he had for Buffy.

06 Everything Changes - Staind
If you just walked away
What could I really say?
Would it matter anyway?
Would it change how you feel?

I am the mess you chose
The closet you cannot close

This song reminds me of Buffy asking for time at the end of "Lover's Walk" in season three, Angel's departure after Graduation Day Part Two, and Buffy leaving at the end of "I Will Remember You" and at the end of "Sanctuary".

07 I Know I Know I Know - Tegan and Sara
Laugh with me, shout, scream now tell me you're staying
I know I know I know, you're still my love
The same as I love you, you'll always love me too
This love isn't good unless it's me and you

Last night I was writing about you
I know my screaming and shouting won't keep you
I know I know I know, you're still my love

Angel's leaving at the end of Season three. Even though they're both in love with each other and neither wants it to end, he knows he has to let her go, at least for now.

08 Los Angeles - Sugarcult
This city's killing me
I want, I want, I want everything
This city's killing me
In the heat of Los Angeles

Come on, come on
It's alive and breathing
Come on, come on
Come alive today
Come on, come on
It's a heartless beating

I heard this song about two years ago and it immediately reminded me of Angel, the entire song just screamed Angel. It reminds me strongly of Angel's arrival in L.A. and the mission he choses to take on, trying to forget about Sunnydale and the mistakes he's made.

09 Save Us - Feeder
Face against the ground
Torn, but you can stand
Your will is strong, but you have now
I know you can save us

Fears you can’t deny
It’s burned a hole, right through your soul
But I know you can save us

This is just a hero song for Buffy and Angel, both of them suffering endlessly through trial after trial trying to fight the good fight. They keep getting knocked down but they always get up again.

10 I'm Dying - VAST
Not one day goes by
That I don't compromise your love
For the cold love of the world
It's killing me through
My own evil pride

Angel's P.O.V., in all his angst, especially in season two with all he goes through for and with Darla. And also for Buffy, in season six, as she struggles with trying to readjust to the world after experiencing heaven.

11 03.45: No Sleep - The Cardigans
I'm dating ancient ghosts
The ones I made friends with
The comfort of fireflies
Long gone before daylight

And if I had one wish fulfilled tonight
I'd ask for the sun to never rise

This is set during Season five of Buffy, when Angel comes to comfort her after the her mother's funeral. Neither wants him to leave but the morning is coming.

12 Please Please Please - Shout Out Louds
Long time ago
The times we had were so and so
It was the worst date of your life

But yesterday when i saw your eyes in a black haze
You didnt even know my name
So i walked on pretending that you still belong
but it will never be the same no more

Again for Buffy's angst in season six and Angel's longing. Their off-screen meeting when she returns.

13 Keep Myself Awake - Black Lab
It's always cold
It's always day
You're always here
You always say
I'm all right
I'll be okay
If i can keep myself awake

Another reminder of IWRY as well, this song also reminds me of Angel Season five and Buffy Season seven. Sort of what I can imagine them feeling as they near their respective "end-of-the-world"s.

14 The World You Love - Jimmy Eat World
I got a story it's almost finished
all i need is someone to tell it too
maybe, that's you.

it doesn't seem theres hope for me
i let you down
but i won't give in now
not for any amount

Mostly Angel's P.O.V. it relates to NFA and post-NFA feelings.

15 Bixby Canyon Bridge - Death Cab For Cutie
Beneath the Bixby Canyon Bridge
Until I eventually arrived
At the place where your soul had died.

Buffy, Post Chosen and NFA, reflecting on Angel during her search for what has become of him.

16 You're A Wolf - Sea Wolf
Old gypsy woman spoke to me, lips stained red from a bottle of wine.
The one that you are looking for, you’re not gonna find her here.

Angel reflecting on the return of his soul, the first, second, and third times. Post-NFA finding his path again.



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[info]un_den_iable
2008-05-21 09:19 pm UTC (link)
A beautiful mix. B/A were my first ship and there is such a weakness in my heart for them. Snagged the zip.

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[info]esperar
2008-05-21 10:40 pm UTC (link)
Thanks, and I know what you mean. They were my first ship too and I'll always have a soft spot for them.

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[info]myherodrowning
2008-05-21 09:29 pm UTC (link)
like the user above me, B/A was my first ship and I will always have a special place in my heart for them. this is a great mix. snagging when I'm not at work, heh. =D

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[info]birch_leaf
2008-05-21 09:38 pm UTC (link)
Great mix! Snagging, thanx :D

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[info]esperar
2008-05-21 10:40 pm UTC (link)
Thank you, enjoy the mix!

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[info]trepkos
2008-05-21 09:43 pm UTC (link)
Thank you.

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[info]vanouria
2008-05-21 10:05 pm UTC (link)
thank you! nothing beats buffy and angel :)

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[info]esperar
2008-05-21 10:41 pm UTC (link)
Enjoy!

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[info]kiasama
2008-05-21 11:16 pm UTC (link)
B/A my ultimate OTP! No matter what ships come along I always end up coming back to this one. :D

This looks great! Downloading the zip, thanks!

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[info]kassandrajones
2008-05-21 11:17 pm UTC (link)
Great song choices!

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[info]averypartofme
2008-05-22 12:31 am UTC (link)
I had to snag because of all the Sugarcult songs. I was never a huge B/A shipper, but these songs fit them perfectly. Thanks so much.

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[info]kyriofic
2008-05-22 01:40 am UTC (link)
I actually just started watching Buffy this year, and B/A quickly became one of my OTPs. I was so upset by them breaking up I'm taking a break from the series *fails*

Beautiful mix, snagging it :D

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[info]chibi_inu13
2008-05-22 02:18 am UTC (link)
even though i'm all about the Faith/Buffy love now a days, i always come running back to the original OTP of the show, Buffy/Angel. This mix really does fit them =]

Thanks for the awesome mix of songs, downloading it ^^

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[info]happyville
2008-05-22 03:22 am UTC (link)
*squeals* My OTP for the first half of the BTVS series!! :D And it's so gorgeousssss. Snagging!

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[info]soophelia
2008-05-22 07:40 am UTC (link)
Buffy/Angel was my first ship so I'm definitely snagging this one!

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[info]geckoholic
2008-05-22 03:50 pm UTC (link)
*me is taking the zip*

The cover art looks great!!

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[info]carevna_koshka
2008-05-22 09:39 pm UTC (link)
Soooooo much love for my first ship <3 Thanks!

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[info]bitemealienboy
2008-05-23 09:25 am UTC (link)
taking^^ thank u so much!!!

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[info]re_weird
2008-05-26 04:08 am UTC (link)
Would you mind uploading the C.S. Lewis song separately?

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[info]esperar
2008-05-26 05:02 pm UTC (link)
Sure, here it is:

http://www.mediafire.com/?whowtlmn9sf

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